I originally logged on here for the first time in months to contact my really good friend but I do like looking back on these journals to see where my head was at in the past so I will update with how I'm feeling lately.
Firstly, how things have changed in 1 year from when I first wrote my profile description. I will however keep the description as is because it brings me joy!
I have graduated from university with a Bachelor of Science in Animal Behaviour (2:1 Hons)
I transitioned over to a new univeristy, one I can't believe I was accepted to
I have almost completed my Master of Science degree in Conservation Biology and I'm actually on target for a good grade at the end of it (finishes Sept 2015)
I have work experience with one of the university professors lined up for the summer, the same professor that has contacts in the field of where I want to advance into..the sad truth is it's who you know in the conservation world that gets you paid employment most everything else is volunteer based
I am starting driving lessons in the summer when university work isn't as full on as it is now
Most importantly, I am 22 months into my first ever relationship, we're still going strong and we have been talking lately of an engagement when we both have a reasonable amount of time to plan our living situation
It feels like even though there has been a lot of stress and many tears this year, everything is falling into place finally. I have spent almost 5 years at university unsure of where to go after I left to now where I have decided on a career plan within the last 4 weeks. I do believe over planning isn't a great idea so I have left the 'plan' open to disasters... being realistic there are many university graduates who have good degrees that can't find work in their own field. Taking my sister, a law graduate, for example, she was unemployed for 2 years before she found a job at a law firm only to leave 1.5 years later to pursue a career as a maths teacher, and she's the happiest she's ever been. I'm hoping that by attempting to pursue a career in a field that I have always enjoyed as a hobby since a child I'll transition smoothly into this field rather than getting into a job just to chase money!
Despite there being a lot of negatives bringing me down lately, there are just as many positives and I think I need to write to myself like this more often as it reminds me of the good things that are happening right now, at this present moment and forces me to look forward to the future.
The biggest stress right now obviously comes from the workload at uni. within the space of 4 weeks I have 13 assignments due. These are not even small assignments they consist of literature reviews 3000-5000 words each, presentations, grant proposals, primers, reports...so many journal articles to read..so little time I'm 23 now I started on this site when I was 18 oh the impending responsibility !
P.S I will keep everything under private until I can return and upload everything fresh and unseen before.
Also, anyone who knows me knows I don't like re reading over messages or personal stuff straight away so I apologise for the lack of everything in this journal if you're silly enough to actually read my ramblings !